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Tuesday 24 September 2013

Letter 8: Love like you've never been hurt

Dear 16 year old self,
last week for drama class I worked with a close friend on our term project. We had to create our own piece of theatre. We decided to use Love as our theme. Love found and love lost...and how to deal with it... I wrote a piece which one of my fellow students performed as part of our project. We managed to get our teacher to tears, so I'm hoping it will get the message through to you too.

Maybe I'll post the video of the performance later. It was basically about a couple, who went from having things perfect to losing it completely....
But here's the last part of the monologue (the part the male reads to his ex girlfriend):


They say love like you’ve never been hurt…

I never understood that.

How could I ever learn to trust or love someone,

When I know that one day they’re going to leave me?

I trusted and loved once without caution,

I handed love out like free candy to the people around me.

And every heart I touched in the process,

Ended up hurting me.

I suppose I expected that sort of thing from my friends,

People are naturally selfish and they don’t really see what impact their actions have.

 

But you.

You promised you were different.

But you ran away. You ran just like them.

And you left me here.

Alone.

Broken.

 

I took it one day at a time,

Took the space I needed to heal.

And slowly but surely, the sun got a bit brighter.

And My smile, a bit more genuine.

I don’t think it go easier.

I just got stronger.

And I learned that I love myself now,

And I could only learn to do that,

By Accepting the reality that there’s no guarantee in life that I am going to be loved.

I am the only constant in my life. Everyone else can leave at any minute.

I know now what I deserve and I’ve learned to accept and forgive.

 

So when they say, “Love like you’ve never been hurt…”

I think they mean Love yourself like you’ve never been hurt.

The way people treat you, does not define you.

You define who you are. You accept the love you think you deserve.

And I know, I deserve better than you.

So I thank you, for teaching me to love myself.


Hope you enjoyed it.

Love,
19 Year Old Nadine